If you had told me 15 years ago that I would be living on my own in a beautiful house in California overlooking a mountain with a garden, a full heart, and recording music again, I would have said you were nuts!
At the time, I had just walked away from an expanding music career, was living in Spanish Harlem in NYC with my boyfriend whom I expected to marry one day, and had a six-figure sales job at technology company. From the outside, my life looked idyllic. But my heart was restless and I felt empty.
It was at that point that I made a choice: I wanted to go home. To myself.
The next several years saw me split with my boyfriend, change careers, build a business, close a business, gain and lose friends and fall to my knees.
Although this was the most painful few years of my life, I wouldn’t change a thing. When I reached rock bottom, I met myself for the first time. With all my weaknesses, insecurities and flaws in tow, I opened my heart to ME. I held my own hand and started my journey toward wholeness.
I had two powerful allies to support my journey home: BodyTalk and Qigong.
Around this time, I started practicing qigong, tai chi and meditation with a Taoist Priest from Wudang Mountain, a mystical mountain in China. These practices gave me the energy, will and internal connection to face my challenges and start rebuilding my life.
I also relied heavily on BodyTalk; an extraordinary healing modality that I was practicing and teaching. BodyTalk helped me to expand my physical, emotional and spiritual foundations beyond what I thought was possible and gave me the tools I needed to release so many old psychological patterns that were no longer serving me.
Many countries, gurus, spiritual practices, laughter and tears later, I left everything behind and moved from New York City to Northern California.
I had never felt at home anywhere…until I moved next to Mt. Tamalpais.
Seeing Mt. Tam and her majesty every day has helped me connect me to a holy, quiet space within where my soul, my essence and my creativity reside. I feel like I’ve found my true home after 15 years of wandering.
It didn’t take long before the internal centeredness allowed my creative energy to break free, and I couldn’t create fast enough! Within a year, I’d created a 12-song album and book of photographs and stories called The Vibration Project.
Mt. Tam is my mirror. Being beside her simplicity, beauty and presence I am reminded of those qualities within myself…I am home. That’s why the first song on the Vibration Project album, “You’re My Home,” is my tribute to the mountain that helped me find my center.
The music video that accompanies the song is a glimpse into my physical home, and the photographs in the video and book are little pieces of my soul that I captured on my journey to back to that quiet, creative place.
It is my deep wish that this song and video be an inspiration and reminder to others to never give up the search to find the home inside of themselves, wherever that may be.
This music video was chosen as runner up for the Posi Music Awards for the most positive music video of 2012. And I’m humbled and ecstatic and even awe-struck that my song is being honored. It will also be featured in an MTV- like internet channel, so stay tuned!
That’s it! Thank you so much for your love and support. I feel it every day and it means the world to me.